The moment
the clock ticked 11 in the night, the jingling of the keys was heard. A few
seconds later, the Doctor entered his apartment. Quietly, he removed his shoes,
went to washroom and came back 10 minutes later. All the while, the ancient
grandfather clock in the hall was ticking away, in slow rhythmic motion.
“And the state police is still
looking for the culprit who broke into museum last night. The officers haven’t
yet found what was stolen, but the investigation is going on actively,” the reporter in the television
continued reading in her monotonous voice while the Doctor prepared some dinner
for himself.
He entered
his bedroom and placed his plate of dinner on the floor. Sitting on the bean
bag, he picked up the plate, stared at it for one full minute, and before
beginning, muttered to himself, “I’m getting too old for this shit.”
Silently
chewing the same old dinner that he is having for six years now, the Doctor
couldn’t help looking at the one corner of his room that he dreaded most. A
picture was sitting on the wall rack; a beardless, more human-looking himself
with a smiling kid and a pretty girl. The dim, yellow lights were hiding most of
the kid and the girl’s face. Still, the boy’s smile and the girl’s eyes were
highlighted somehow.
All of a
sudden, the Doctor almost threw his plate on the floor and sprang up from the bean
bag. Grabbing a bottle of whiskey and a pack of smokes from the hall table, he
hurriedly made himself a drink, neat, and lit one of the cigarettes with
shaking hands. Inhaling deeply, he released a thick puff of smoke. He was
visibly calmed now, his hands no more shaking. However, the battle inside his
head raged on.
Slowly, he
returned to the bedroom with his drink and smoke and sat on the bed this time,
quietly looking at the picture, while sipping from his glass. Reluctantly, his
eyes were drawn to another object in the room; a calendar. “Six years, four
months, three days, 22 hours,” he whispered to himself.
He heard
some commotion in the adjoining apartment. “Bloody neighbours,” he muttered
again as the noise increased. Suddenly, he heard loud thumps on his door. He
tried to ignore it, but the thumping increased. “Go away! I’m off duty now!” he
shouted, but in vain. It seemed that the visitor was determined not to leave
till he saw the Doctor. Angrily, he put on his shirt, walked towards the door
and opened it. “What?” he almost shouted at a scared looking teenager boy.
“Pplease
ddoctor…” the boy said, stuttering, “My…my grandpa, he is not well.”
“I’m off
hours now,” the Doctor said grumpily, even though he knew that moments
afterwards, he will be carrying his bag and exiting his solitary apartment.
“Jus…just
come for once doctor, he… he doesn’t look we…well…” the boy insisted, shaking.
“You called
the ambulance?” the Doctor asked as a last effort to get rid of the boy.
However, he had already picked up his bag and was wearing shoes.
“No, no…
mumma is not home, so…so I called her and she told me to get yo…you.”
“Alright,
alright, let’s go.”
They both
entered the neighbouring apartment. Though the Doctor had been living in the
building for almost six years now, he never befriended the neighbours and this
was first time he was entering another apartment.
The hall
strongly smelled of medicines, dust and poverty. The paint on the walls was
chipped off and there was barely any furniture. The boy led him to a small,
gloomy-looking room. A rickety old fan was dangling from the ceiling, spinning
slowly making a lot of noise. The window panes were open, though it wouldn’t
have mattered even if they were closed as all the glasses on it were either
cracked or shattered. There was a dirty, spotted curtain tied to it, which was
swaying slowly in the wind, giving the impression of a spirit with white robes,
leaving the room.
There were
only three objects in the room; a metal bookshelf, a rickety wooden chair and a
rusty iron bed beside it, with someone laying on it, covered in thick blankets.
The boy pointed towards the bed. The Doctor slowly walked to it.
There was a
very old man on it, moaning, with his eyes closed tightly. The Doctor knew that
the man was in pain as his brow-less forehead was contracted with numerous
wrinkles. The moment the Doctor saw the old man’s face, he knew that he had
counted days left.
The Doctor
was about to sit on the chair when the boy suddenly said, “Not there, don’t sit
on it.” The Doctor looked at the boy, but didn’t reply. Putting his bag on the
floor, he approached the old man.
“Where’s
your mom?” the Doctor asked touching the old man’s forehead.
“She’s not
back from work yet,” the boy said, a bit calmed down but still shaking
nervously.
The Doctor
nodded and took out his stethoscope from the bag. After checking the old man’s
chest with it, he took out his notepad and wrote some medicines. It was just a
normal fever, nothing serious.
“Get these
medicines, the fever should wear off till morning. And close the windows,
otherwise he might catch cold,” the Doctor said, giving the prescription to the
boy.
“Thanks,”
the boy murmured and accompanied the Doctor to the door.
***
The bright
sun rays felt like a blast of light as the Doctor woke up.
“Shit,” he
muttered, looking at his wristwatch that he was still wearing. Getting up, he
stumbled upon the empty bottle of whiskey. An overloaded ash tray was sitting
on the windowsill, with several cigarette butts laying around it.
Readying up
hurriedly, the Doctor left the home, forgetting to switch off the lights in the
hall.
At the
strike of 11 in the night, the Doctor entered his apartment and after
freshening up in the washroom, he entered the kitchen to prepare some food.
“In yet another bizarre robbing
incident, the office of state archive department was found broken this evening
and just like the last time, the culprit hasn’t taken anything. Police and the
authorities are confused regarding the intentions of the culprit,” the reporter blurted in her mechanical
tone as the Doctor entered the bedroom with his dinner.
“Six years,
four months, four days, 19 hours,” he said to himself as he chewed a piece of
bread.
Though he
likes to live alone, the most dreadful moment in the Doctor’s life is when he
has to go to sleep. For years, he has trained himself to sleep as less as possible,
without losing his sanity. However, after a particular hour in the night, he is
not able to resist the sleep and then it happens, all over again; first, the
happy laughs, the warm, comforting touch of the skin, the innocent smiles,
those pretty, big eyes, and then, the fire, the shrieks, the paralysis, the
inability to do something, anything, and last, the smell of burnt meat, the
suffocating fumes and a captivating dizziness.
Every single
day since last six years, the Doctor is having the same dream. He visited the
psychiatrist, his parents, his friends…nothing worked. The dream just kept
haunting him every single night.
Hence, he
came out with his own device; he started to drink, and drink heavily and he
began smoking too. Sometimes, when he thinks of it, he can’t stop smiling at
the irony. He was known as a teetotaller among his friends…she used to be proud of him, telling her friends that how the Doctor sets a perfect example for the
kid.
But it is
gone now, she is gone now, the kid is gone now…and the Doctor? Well, even if he
likes to think that he has no purpose left in this world anymore, there he is,
as alive as any human being can ever be. So, he is just going with the flow.
His hollow, empty eyes neither looking to the future nor reminiscing him of the
past. He is just a dead man among the living ones, or maybe, vice versa.
The thump on
the door brought him back to the present with a shock. In frenzy, he stood up
hurriedly, knocking the dinner plate in the process. Cursing himself, he went
to the hall and opened the door.
“Grandpa is
better now. He wanted to thank you. If you are free for a while, can you please
come and meet him? He is unable to walk much, so…” the boy from the other night
was there.
Staring at
the boy for a moment, the Doctor went inside without saying anything. In a
minute, he came back.
“Let’s go.”
The old man
was sitting on the bed, supporting his back on the headboard.
“Really
obliged to meet you my dear sir, I can’t thank you enough,” the old man greeted
the Doctor in a surprisingly bold and firm voice, which the Doctor was not
expecting.
“You look better,” the Doctor said, trying to smile.
“Again,
thanks to you,” the old man grinned under his toothless lips.
As soon as
the Doctor was about to sit on the chair, the old man almost shouted, “No! Not
there!” Taken aback, the Doctor looked at the old man in bewilderment.
“Please
forgive me for my indecency, sir. You can sit on the bed, there is plenty of
space.”
The old man
shifted a bit and the Doctor sat beside him.
“How are you
feeling now?” the Doctor asked.
“I’m fine,
at least for now.”
“Where’s
your daughter-in-law? Is she still at work?”
“I guess so,
but she should be here anytime now.”
“And your
son?”
The old man
looked outside the window for a while and without answering the Doctor’s
question, said, “I’m sorry that I acted rude.”
“It’s fine,
I didn’t mind,” the Doctor said, avoiding any awkwardness.
“Well,
there’s a story,” the old man said. After a brief pause, he continued, smiling,
“There is always a story, isn’t there?”
“I am all
ears,” the Doctor replied. In a weird way, he actually felt good about sitting
beside an old man and listening to his story instead of going to bed. This way,
he will get a few hours more to avoid that ever-haunting dream.
“You must be
wondering, why I didn’t let you sit on the chair,” the old man said, shifting
under his blankets, “Actually, the thing is, till recently, I used to be an
atheist, since as long as I remember, I never believed in any god, or for that
matters, any supernatural entity that controls the human beings.”
The old man
paused again. The doctor was looking outside the window; he could see the tiny
lights blinking and moving in the distance, and a river, reflecting the
moonlight.
“Then I got
the news from my doctor that I was not going to live for many days,” the old
man continued, “That’s when it all started to change.”
“My grandson
got this chair for the visitors. However, one day, all of a sudden, I don’t
know why or how, I felt like, I need something, or someone, to help me with the
pain, which can ease the suffering, make me feel like I am not alone.”
“That was
the day I decided to worship this chair.”
This broke
the string of thoughts in the Doctor’s head. Flabbergasted, he looked at the
old man, who was keenly watching the chair with a soothing expression on his
face.
“That’s when
things became better. I know I will be leaving soon, but this chair, it will be
there for me, forever, in this life and the one after that. It is my god now.”
The old man
was exhausted with all the talking. Breathing heavily, he closed his eyes.
The Doctor
waited for a few minutes.
“It will be
alright, don’t worry,” he patted the old man’s arm. When he didn’t reply, the
Doctor got up and left.
***
“I don’t
know what happened! He was fine! All of a sudden, he started to gag and now…and
now…he…he is not moving! Please…please hurry up!” the boy was crying.
The Doctor
immediately picked up his bag and rushed to the next apartment.
“What
exactly happened?” he tried to ask, but the boy was weeping uncontrollably.
The Doctor
almost ran to old man’s room. “Damn family,” he muttered angrily, “Where the
heck are this boy’s parents always.”
Entering the
room, the Doctor rushed to the old man, when suddenly, a bizarre sight almost
gave him a seizure.
The old man’s
head was resting on the chair, as if someone had dragged him half to it from
the bed. However, it was not just that; his head was not resting on the chair
exactly, it was hovering a few inches above of it.
With his
eyes closed, the old man was smiling pleasantly. The Doctor slowly approached him.
Checking his nerves, he found that the old man was dead for sure. He tried to
lift his head and put it on the bed, but he was unable to do so. Tired of
making efforts, he asked the boy, “Where are your parents? Have you called
them?”
The boy was
standing near the door, sobbing.
“They won’t
come, they never come,” he said, his whole body shaking.
“What do you
mean they won’t…” the Doctor looked angrily at the boy.
The boy was
staring at him and the Doctor looked into his eyes.
“Is he with
his god?” The boy asked, with a deep voice.
The Doctor
was unable to move, it was as if someone had clamped him tightly. However, the
moment passed. As soon as he came back to his senses, the Doctor grabbed his
bag and ran out of the house.
He entered
his apartment, packed all the necessary stuff and left it in frenzy.
He even
forgot to pack the picture with the girl and the kid.
He had no
idea where he was going, what he was doing and how he was doing it.
All he knew
was, that he needed to get away from that apartment, that old man, that boy…
And most
importantly, that chair.